Happy New Year all! Back to work tomorrow so i've gotta squeeze this one in. After the last post, i found myself where i wanted to be, i was eaten by the darkness i craved, not knowing it would eat me inside out. Knowing what i know about my future in a timeline not too far away, i've gotta get used to it. Cheryl and i have gotten another Chinese Water Dragon, her name is Hokulea (Star of Happiness) Cheryl picked the name. We spent last night watching The Twilight Zone & Seinfeld marathon, and turned the cahnnel at the right time for the countdown, this is the first time i've celebrated the new year before everyone in Hawaii, in EST. And it's the first time i actually had someone to kiss at midnight, Cheryl in many ways is my first.


I chose the name of this post because it's what the predecessors of the one we're with, have been to them. I think about damage to the hiuman soul a lot, and God knows i've taken a couple souls on a ride tied to the bumper, so i'm not really innocent...as is no one. It's not the shoes that have to be filled in the sense that i have to do better, it's so i don't repeat the cleated footsteps on the same heart & soul, because i intend to walk barefoot with Cheryl for the rest of my life as we walk our own path. But i'm contending with the proverbial seven headed hydra, yet no matter how i walk, their marks are there.

Generally with women, there are callers and suitors, i spoke with my mother in October after a good time of contemplation on the human soul of a woman, and i told my mom, i'm not saying that women are stupid, but they hang on to the losers and leeches not because of co-dependence, but because they feel that somewhere in the shadows of doubt and denial that their men have the capacity to change, or are going to, like living on a prayer. She said, no we are stupid, at her age an experiences with men, my mom can honestly say it's just stupidity. Even though she said it, i have no place to say that, but speaking from the source, i actually stated wishfull thinking and hoping. Somertimes even with a new one, that she's been spending good times with, the woman's mind still feels and is waiting for the next shoe to fall.

I am around the neighbourhood today with new years wishes as I travel bravejournal today so am Wishing you and yours wisdom and all greatest 2007 and beyond